unbalanced

Chatelaine by Violator , originally uploaded by arialee miles.

I lost my balance in a night of words
among intense loops and somersaults,
where my mind intrigued for a moment
the only answer I was allowed to expect.
And I went on telling myself nonsense
about how things were supposed to go,
about love, awareness and attraction
about the circus and the trapeze,
control of emotions and its medicine.
No more I will be blatantly confident,
when everything else is safe but my heart,
so that in the pure shine of the truth
mirrors a whole world of emptiness and lies.

heather leaves

ROCK LOOK _Close up_ SoloEvane casting , originally uploaded by arialee miles.

When the heather bends
the no-love leaves
followed by silence
quiet the water shines ,
and the earth stops to breathe .
Slowly my past caresses the days
the things that have never been .
And you … inside your words
the ones you told me
and the unsaid ones .
And inside your gestures
the ones I could only imagine,
inside your mind
and in things that you don’t know .
I saw you in my eyes
and sliding my hand in yours
I let it go ,
until it disappeared.
A desire, a shiver
maybe a regret ,
doesn’t matter anymore.

futile

dirty rich , originally uploaded by arialee miles.

What miracle people are looking for
while descending the slope of their disdain?

Till where does an elusive glance arrive
before stopping to caress the eyes of a lost love ?

Is it all an escape to fight the days of a next cold winter ?
I don’t know anymore ,
I barely understand my reasons ,
I look for you, for an answer and I wait
for something that could open my mind
and clear up the fog and the regrets .

Have we to let go our enchanted time ?
our space , our passions
our infinite attempt to be true to each others?
That suspended moment between time and reminds
when it is just us and nothing else appears?

Your music breaks my silence,
my words are not enough to unveil you
to keep you close , to win your resistance.
Don’t keep me outside
Don’t close the door .
I am here .


Via Flickr:
Blogged

le estreme propaggini ( the farthest branches )

la signora delle camelie, originally uploaded by arialee miles.

Le estreme propaggini ,
del tuo errabondo amore
mi raggiungono,
mi circondano,
mi toccano.
Ed io sorpresa
mi avvolgo in esse,
mi rimbocco
le tue ali sulle spalle
e mi arrendo,
tranquilla
nei tuoi sogni
mi addormento.

>>>>>><<<<<<< The farthest branches of your wandering love reach me, surround me, touch me. And I surprised wrap myself in them, I tuck your wings on my shoulders and I surrender, peaceful, in your dreams, I fall asleep.

the dress or not the dress

to be or not to be, originally uploaded by arialee miles.

There are little truths
stinging like bumble-bees
that nobody dares to say .
Some little absurd statements
so true in their naïve essence
that people prefer to forget.
There are little people,
made bigger for casual chance
who think to be dressed
until a single voice,
dissonant from the adoring court,
plaintive at the beginning ,
then stronger and stronger
dares to shout ,
breaking the astonished silence,
“the king is naked”.

I hear your music

disaster in brown , originally uploaded by arialee miles.

I hear your music.
Your silent symphony
explodes in my head,
and the sound
shivers on my spine
rolling on my back,
until it flows
along my arms
in my hands.
A thousand words,
unsaid,
color their meaning
in the deafening noise
of a mute discourse.
I will continue to
talk to you
even if trapped
into an hopeless
silence.

the sluggishness

GK slap garde black , originally uploaded by arialee miles.

The sluggishness of a day,
passionate in vain,
catches me unexpected,
and the air of a new fall
surprises me again.

The sun in its envious turning
flatters me with an embrace.
Late season,
ultimate attempt
of languorous mildness.

I observe myself crying ,
and I don’t see my face.
How have I been able to
not recognize myself
in my true nature?

I can’t say I’ve gotten lost,
because I don’t know
if through the flowing of time,
I have ever been able
to find myself.

I live halfway
suspended in an undefined space,
in the acute percipience
of my senses,
being on the alert.

I am going away,
I leave myself.
My strength slowly
extinguishes itself,
engulfed by still parasites.

Eyes more empty,
a more tired heart,
my mind chases after
my soul in its
failed outbursts.

That’s why I survive
under this sick sun,
driving myself back,
refusing myself
the colour of a thought.

the sailing rules

forget me not, originally uploaded by arialee miles.

Here a quite old piece of mine but strangely consistent with my present mood .

Today I observed the people
Like I watched them
for the first time.

Just a simple thought,
but it cut me to the quick.

Each of us is an island.
Doesn’t matter how
one borders to another
forming an archipelago.

There is an arm of sea
in between.
A deep sea,
so we can’t swim.

Therefore,
to go across that sea,
we use boats made of words.
Sometimes they keep the water,
sometimes they sink.

So we hoist the sails
of our enthusiasm,
and in contrary wind,
full of disappointment,
fast we lower them.

We rock,
trying to catch a rope
which would take us
sheltered from ourselves,
inside another person.

The other,
we entrust lot of ourselves,
loving and unawares.
We cling to the sailing rules,
we use the compass and
we use the nautical charts.

We learn the necessary
about winds and tides,
we are worthwhile of the storms,
we polish the bulkheads
and we supply the storeroom.
Filled with optimism,
excited by the journey.

Then while we are in the open sea
and we already glimpse the ground,
the sea suddenly flattens,
and we pray,
we wait for a thrust
which would drag us
out of that slack calm,
but it doesn’t happen.

Then we amazed,
astounded,
we wonder why?
We ask ourselves
about the sailing rules,
the strength of our wishes,
about our desires.

We feel betrayed
by ourselves,
incapable to be consistent,
to hold the course,
to steer the vessel,
incapable
to strength the stain
which pushes ourselves
towards that new
unknown land.

So we slowly,
sailing close to the wind,
turn back,
over our steeps,
often over others’ steps,
quiet, sad, a bit older,
and alone again.

a gentle turn

absolute truth, originally uploaded by arialee miles.

Sailing in the open sea ,
during a drastic sudden change of course,
it is always the helmsman who fails the steer.
Don’t blame the sea, don’t charge the waves,
do not curse the wind .
It is neither the compass nor the foresail .
They will be your steady hands on the helm ,
your heedful eyes open to the horizon,
the pureness of heart during the passage ,
the truth to the route ,
that will make you accomplish a gentle turn.
Hesitations , lacks of consistence ,
disregard of streams and undercurrents ,
will make you fail and fall .

on the threshold

after the rain by arialee miles, originally uploaded by arialee miles.

On the threshold of my despair
You left your sign
So that everyone who crosses that door
Can see your abyss inside my heart.

In the folds of my soul
You left your handprints
So that everyone who looks into my eyes
Can see your reflection mirroring in me.

In the basement of my determination
You pitched the tent of need
So that I can’t detach anymore
From the shadow of an inaccessible past.

after the rain

take another little piece of my heart ...., originally uploaded by arialee miles.

A whip hurts less than the sudden sparkle
you saw enlightening the darkness of your days.
Therefore I am dead .
But I will never regret to have lived,
even only for a minute ,
in the shadow of a lost dream of yours.

spring mood

spring mood , originally uploaded by arialee miles.

When comes the spring I become lazy but these days are even day of preparation to a better season !

Pet Peeves

ritratto di signora con cappello, originally uploaded by arialee miles.

Today I feel “tricky “ and pestering and in mood to talk about what I dislike to read in SL residents ‘s profiles.

They aren’t matters of mine and moreover are only personal opinions so please don’t feel offended if your profile shows one of the things I can’t stand. That’s only me ..and none is perfect !! ^^


My idiosyncrasy for those little peremptory statements is something not really important that I should ignore but I am so bad and I can’t help to get irritated by that abuse of banality I read in profiles otherwise very good and interesting.

I am talking of those cooked and mainstream sentences .... always the same you can read profile after profile , that people thinks is “chic” or “brilliant” to write there .

First among them is the reference to the word “drama” in all its declinations and its specifications.

Until some time ago one of the most recognized “taboo boo-boo” in SL was a “drama” person/action specially in love relationships , luckily this obsession has gone a bit lost lately even because people are noticing that the “drama free zone” area was becoming a nobody land where all kind of bad behaviours were permitted and where every legitimate complaint about not fair actions were labelled as “drama” and accordingly stigmatized.

So the awful expressions “ no drama “ ( in all its variations ) or even worse the other “drama free zone “ that we can find in the smirking profiles of every “wannabe snob” ( often together the other absolute horror and conceptual mistake “my IM get capped“ and the other pearl of wisdom “resume can be given upon request”) are now so mainstream to become an almost burlesque cliché.

Luckily a new awareness movement is raising against banality and more and more people abhor and denounce as completely dumb such statements.

So please lets make ourselves a gift and have our small dose of liberating drama now and then …. lets allow our IMs to go happily capped, and if that really happens we can always read them on the mail…. ( on the contrary a lost notecard ... is lost forever !!... yes baby that’s a new for you even notecards get capped !! ) and in final lets avoid this conceited” diva “attitude to assume that someone in a such competitive field looking casually at our profile (professional readers have already in their hands more infos than we can imagine ) is driven by such a strong need to read about ourselves to break their silence and ask us the resume. Risible !!

Anyhow if we are interested in providing some additional information to the adventurous who should wander in reading our profiles we can put an educated link to a website , a blog or a flickr where we can place an extended curriculum vitae and some quality photo ..... avoiding this way the awful sentence.

Lets go back to the drama now because the issue is inspiring ( lol !) and lets explain why I think that this fake “no drama” attitude is not only dumb but even a dangerous cliché .

The “no make drama” sentence like the “ my IMs get capped” ( never , always , often, constantly depending on the degree of one own self esteem) in profiles are a sample of collective trends that people follow without even know where to go , just because they think is a cool thing to write .

It is obvious none likes to turn their SL in a worldwide war or a sequel of “fight club” or again in a championship of wrestling in the mud , but the attitude to be forcedly detached by every form of human feelings and the answer ”no drama please ” that is given to us too fast as soon as we dare to politely disagree with someone, ask for an explication or simply in a kind way don’t comply to every extravagant request , in my opinion is highly irritating .

At least it irritate me to the highest.


So I guess if for a sample your partner cheats on you and consequently breaks up with you to follow the first club dancer ( estate manager, red district escort , scripter , builder, PR , fire-eater, trapeze and go on ) he/she met when you were offline dealing with the tax office papers or with your kid’s measles , you can have written in your profile “no drama“ in bold character in every page ..... you can even be in good faith believing in what you wrote , but I guess you will be possessed by an irrepressible impulse to take him/her for a ear , put the beast sitting on a thorns chair and swear him/her all the Julian, Gregorian , lunar and solar calendars in 5 or 6 languages well known, less known and unknown .

But the only fact you wrote that little “non sense” in your profile will give to the bastard the allowance to answer you in a condescending way ..” dear but weren’t you the one who hated dramas ? ..so dear cool down and take it easy … ..lets be rational ..lets avoid drama …. BASTARD!


No my dear ..lets be a little ( just a little ) mean and write in our profiles a quiet line of kind warning to the idiot in charge ..that if he /she only dare to mess up with us they won’t have just a single drama.... ….. but they could eventually get the complete Shakespearian theatrical season !! It is wiser and surely more honest with human nature !!!

We as model ( and not only ) have already so many stress in our professional SL lives, we often have frantic RL that barely combine with our modelling commitments , we have already to avoid dramas on work ( that is a good choice indeed and so obvious that there is no need to write it !) we don’t deserve in addition in our private second lives to be attacked by the puppet in charge with our own words , twisted at others’ use , just because we thought that small sentence was a “cool thing” to write .

Besides , would you wear a dress , ( even the best one), after you see it on other 10 people ?
Never !!! We want be unique , we ARE unique , we are creative and original !

So why indulge in this foolish trend ? Like everything that we can find in more of 3 profile in a row it is so mainstream to the point to become an annoying cliché.

So lets take the “risk” to have some IM capped , lets take the risk that our resume is not requested (btw who is really interested will ask for it anyway ), lets take the further risk to stand for what we think is right without being mocked with our “drama” words .

So lets be professional in our profiles but at same time (always with class and that sense of measure aimed to the uniqueness we stand for ) passionate, original, mad , creative , dreamer , irrational , in few words lets be human because after all it is the only difference that distinguish us from people who have their real soul made of “pixels gone bad” .

Namaste.

the days empty of your presence ...

mardi gras in old pink, originally uploaded by arialee miles.

The days empty of your presence
fall like withered leaves
from the branches of my void time tree.

I mirror in my present
and I don’t see joy in it ,
it is not possible a smile for me if you don’t smile .

I dive in your eyes ,
And I don’t see any room
for something that resembles us.

Laying on the banks of my quiet river
I see your rushing stream finding a way
attacking the sides of the mountain .

And I analyze , without any fake mercy
the reality you always showed to me ,
and like rain it flows on my naked shoulders.

I understand you more than you can know ,
And I torment myself for not being able
to sooth your soul and to lighten your mind .

And our words like lovers’ tears
flow on our empty bare hands ,
that don’t know what else to aim for .



I look at you and deep inside you, I see myself ,
the same rage and the very same pain ,
not able to find an end nor to get to a solution .

Maybe one day looking back at these times ,
we will understand the reason of a smothered love
painted with all the colors of the dream mixed to regret .

simply a model

simply me, originally uploaded by arialee miles.

What means to be a “good model “?
There are many ways to be a good model and different ways to conceive this career but some common points can be numbered.

You will have heard several time about one of the main “no no “ of the model profession ……... the diva attitude !!

Well that doesn’t mean you don’t have to feel a star, if you are objectively someone that shines like a star.

Not having a diva attitude doesn’t mean be flat to the bottom or the average but always being able to be emphatic with everyone.

Being a “no diva “ means not make weight on others your superiority (even if there is ) , always being humble, well-disciplined, professional , easy to deal with and friendly, accepting without discussions all the decisions of agencies and /or designers , even if they seem to you silly and irrational (because sometimes even the irrational has its reasons !! ).

It means learning to understand the people you work with and their limits and pet – peeves.

In fact there are many different ways agencies and designers approach their relations with models, and maybe with others in general.

Some ones like to have constructive feedbacks and advices even from models, feel enriched in their work by exchange of opinions even if dissenting , others on the contrary feel damaged if only one model dares to address them with an < hello > or an IM . So before to have well known with whom you are dealing better keep comments for oneself unless expressly asked for them .

However in this second case even if you have to “ shut up and walk “ do it with serenity without emphasize dramatic ( that are never dramatic ! ) events , never feel diminished for not being able to express your point of view . To let it flow and pass it dancing is plain survival technique.

We are not compelled to be always “in the right”, sometimes lets allow ourselves to be wrong 

A right “no diva” attitude means to have personal preference and thoughts but always help new people that approach the model career, being always ready to support the ones in difficulty even if we wonder how the “eeek” they arrived till there.

Lets be honest, sometimes we wonder why someone clearly not gifted at all insists to pursue this career struggling with it in a endless yet hopeless battle . Well in those cases unless we are their trainers or teachers, lets keep our judgements for ourselves, and if we don’t have anything nice to say lets just shut up.

But never let the ruling mainstream mediocrity make us doubt of our strength ( they will try for sure to drag you down ) or of our skills if we are really convinced about them .

If we are blessed to be “ahead” lets try to not be dragged behind just to have an easier way to live and work.
Lets wear with pride our difference !!

If we have fun in it, and sometimes even if they are not fun at all but “useful “ lets participate to ( well chosen ) contests but don’t rely too much on ephemeral popularity of temporary “titles” which are forgotten two- days after they are passed , but work it ... always work it ...whatever you do and wherever you are, don’t stop to work it hard .

Practice your runway style, your poses and your walk, be proficient in mastering the runway and dare new frontiers in posing understanding when to do it and when keep yourself in a safer zone. Attend courses seminars, talk and listen in models’ workshops and congress , learn to make the clothes you wear live through your experience.

Learn to tell a story to the audience through your look and your moves, let the clothes you wear scream, whisper, love , enchant , seduce through the way you perform and style them.

Fill the clothes with your personality without disturbing their essence, make them speak and express a statement underlining their voice but without suffocating it. Learn to dose the balance.

Attend shows , watch RL fashion shows videos, learn to make poses ,learn to take photos , try to always style yourself , not only for shows but even in everyday life , read magazines , go looking for shops , be always curious ….yes be curious of everything so you will keep the flame alive .

Don’t discourage if all that can seem useless to you , if results don’t come at once , if you have potential and if you worked hard suddenly one magic day all will disclose at your eyes and the caterpillar will become a butterfly .

You will see at that point how easy is to find the right hair for the right dress, the right tone of skin which matches that hair and the perfect accessories to complete the ensemble. If you are so lucky to be blessed with a vein of madness, keep it intact and convey it in your original vision .

The mix of your vision , your style your sense of occasion will build your professional personality , be flexible but never become what you don’t feel to be and mainly have fun doing all the above , because people perceives when someone have fun and really loves it . It gives to the whole a special allure of lightness and shine .

Be aware that although it must be lived and approached with extreme seriousness, the model career must never be perceived exteriorly like a fatigue , it has not to be a fatigue because a model first aim must be to convey the audience desires on the designers’ creations and people likes to follow joyful people.

A sad , worried struggling model will never sell a dress that at very last means to sell a dream in whatever life .